Saturday, March 26, 2011

Blonde for the Weekend: A New Adventure with Turkish Culture


I don’t know what got into me, but it was probably temporary insanity.  After 46 years as a conservative brunette, I became a dishwater blonde last weekend.  Mind you, I didn’t exactly plan to go blonde; it just turned out that way, and believe me, it was a shock! 

This photo, taken at night, makes my hair look darker than it was.

Maybe it was a mini mid-life crisis? How embarrassing.  I’ve always said I’d never dye my hair, I’d just let it go gray naturally. But maybe I’ve been living in Turkey too long now.  Some Turkish women change their hair color like we might buy a new spring coat.  They get bored with the same look, so you see a whole gamut of colors:  black or brown with highlights, bright red, eggplant purple, blonde, and everything in between. 

I think I just wanted a change because, in fact, I had little gray hair for a 46 year old woman.  I’d been plotting for weeks to color my hair while my husband went out of town.  My plan was to get highlights just a shade lighter than my normal brown color to camouflage the gray. 

It was definitely a new level of bonding with Turkish culture! I went to the hairdresser’s at 2:30 and spent the whole afternoon drinking tea and chatting with the hairdresser, Binnur, and another customer.    Binnur and I chose what LOOKED like a light brown for my highlights. However, I should have gotten a clue from her hair: blonde highlights over black. 

After two hours of foil and smelly solutions, I was shocked to look in the mirror and see that the entire top layer of my hair was a brassy dishwater blonde.  Binnur and the other customer raved about how great it looked. 

When I got home, my son howled, “Yoo hoo! Mom’s a blonde!”

 My 11 year old daughter cried out, “Mom, how could you do this to me?” And she ran into her bedroom and slammed the door.

Over the next days it was interesting to see people’s reactions.  My Turkish sister said, “It’s a nice change.  I think it looks great.” My Mexican friend asked, “So does your husband like drastic changes?” One really honest friend said, “That color is too light for you.  It makes you look older. You’d better go get a darker rinse.” The funniest thing was that some people said absolutely nothing. 

What to do? Should I break out of the ordinary and enjoy being a dishwater blonde for a while?  Surely my friends would get used to it. Or should I play it safe and go get the dark rinse immediately before anyone else could see me? My children, who by now actually liked my new hair, insisted I wait until my husband return to decide.

When Jose saw me, he laughed, and said, “What have you done?”  But he didn’t really care whether I stayed  blonde or returned to my brunette self. So the next morning, I went back to the hairdresser. Binnur was shocked and said I’d regret it.

I don’t regret it.  Three days of being blonde was enough.  I breathed a sigh of relief when I got the light brown highlights I wanted. Oh, I have momentary twinges of wishing I were a bit more adventurous.  But maybe adventurous as adventurous does.


I don’t regret three days of being blonde either.  It was kind of fun.  It’s good to break out of the mold, even for a short time.  Have you done anything kind of crazy lately for the sake of adding adventure to your life?

Friday, March 18, 2011

How God Reminded Me I'm Not Superwoman



 
Have you ever planned something that just didn’t turn out as you’d hoped?

I thought I had a great plan for myself during my husband’s two and a half week trip out of the country. I knew I’d miss Jose, but I was almost looking forward to a little extra freedom to plan life on my own for two weeks.  During his absence I planned to visit a few women friends that I’m seeking to share God’s love with.   I would use the time alone in the evenings after the kids were in bed for working on a writing project, and I hoped to spend time with a few girlfriends I haven’t seen recently.

My plans came to a halt when I woke up with the flu the morning I had to take Jose to the airport.  After he left, I struggled through the days trying to accomplish the bare minimum of keeping house, cooking, homeschooling and driving the kids to their extra-curricular activities despite feeling lousy.  On week two a hacking cough set in. How could this be happening?  I hadn’t been this sick in years.  I felt overwhelmed by responsibilities and frustrated that I couldn’t make the visits I’d planned.

I was forced to rest. Sick in bed, I realized again my own human frailty and weakness.  God reminded me that I’m not superwoman.  Of course he’s taught me this before, but I guess I’m a slow learner.  I had time to think about several things:

I am dependent on God’s grace.

Being sick reminded me that I am not as capable or strong as I think I am. I can do nothing without God’s power and grace.  I kept remembering Paul’s words in 2 Cor. 12:9: “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” That was good news because I was definitely feeling weak.

God doesn’t need me to accomplish his work.

I felt frustrated about not being able to visit the m friends I’ve been praying for and want to reach out to.  My husband and I have a vision for cp., and I had looked forward to continuing our ministry of sowing seeds while he was gone. So I was discouraged until I finally had a fresh realization: God’s work is not dependent on what I can do in two weeks while my husband is out of town!  He will still bring people to himself even if I have to take things easy for two weeks.  This is a no brainer. I was even able to laugh over how seriously I’d been taking myself.

I can let go and trust Him.

When I was able to let go and accept that God’s plan for the time during my husband’s absence was different than mine, I ended up with extra time to focus on my relationship with the Him.  I couldn’t meet friends and do many activities, but I spent some extra minutes with Jesus when I could, did a bit of reading, and enjoyed time with my kids.  Last month, I’d been feeling the need to be refilled, and perhaps God allowed this because it was the only way to get me to slow down.

I’ve decided once more that I don’t want to be superwoman.  I just want Christ’s power to rest on me.

How about you? Has anything happened to you lately that reminded you you’re not superhuman?

Friday, March 11, 2011

Recharging your Batteries

What do you do to refuel your tank?

I don’t know about you, but sometimes I get so busy with life that I find myself running on empty.  I enjoy my roles as a wife, homeschooling mother, friend, and cross-cultural worker, but sometimes responsibilities and pile up on my plate and overwhelm me. I run out of gas fast if I’m always working, serving, and giving, without stopping to fill my own tank.  I’ll bet you can relate.

Although it’s hard to find time, I know I need to care for myself if I want to keep serving effectively.  So I’ve been thinking about the things I enjoy doing to refill my tank.

  • Time with God


My favorite morning ritual is getting up before the rest of the family to drink coffee, read the Bible and pray. It’s a way to cultivate my relationship with God, and I find encouragement for the day ahead.  It’s a time to realign my thoughts with God’s word and be renewed. No matter what I’m going through, time with God changes my perspective. I remember Jesus words in March 6:31: “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.” (Mark 6:31)

  • Quiet Time for Thinking and Planning


 I need time just to be quiet, to think, plan and dream.  I try to take a walk every day, which helps me to stay focused spiritually and mentally.  While I walk, I pray and think about what’s going on in my life. Also I take time periodically to evaluate my priorities and set goals.

  • Reading: Cultivating my Mind and Spirit


Recently I felt spiritually dry, and I realized I’d stopped reading. So I picked up a short, simple book called “Intimacy with the Almighty” by Charles Swindoll, and my spiritual life and desire for God were energized.  I also asked several friends to recommend books on a few topics, and I was pleased to get some great recommendations.  Ideally I like to have a novel and Christian non-fiction book going. 

  • Investing time in my family


I try to keep the conversation going with my 11 year old daughter and 13 year old son. We love playing card games while listening to whatever my son has on his MP3 player. (Okay, maybe his music doesn’t always refuel my tank!) We read the scriptures together and sing every night. 

  • Time with my Spouse


It’s easy to neglect the people closest to us, so my husband and I set aside a weekly time to reconnect.  Sometimes we go out and do something fun; other times we work on --ahem-- conflict resolution. Often we talk about our hopes and dreams, or even our schedule. Our weekly date is a lifeline for our relationship.

  • Good Friends


Remember the old Beatles song, “I Get By With A Little Help From My Friends”?  I’m so thankful to have close friends who love me for who I am no matter what state I’m in, people I can be real with.  It’s life-giving to be able to share your heart and know that someone understands, and it’s refreshing to hear another person’s point of view. 

  • Exercise


I’m definitely no exercise freak, but the benefits I get out of my daily walk and short Pilates workout far outweigh the time I invest in them. 

  • Vacations and Time Outdoors


My husband and I schedule outings and vacations to relax together as a family.  I especially love being outdoors, as long as camping isn’t involved!  I love the beach, the mountains, rivers and streams.   

What about you?  What do you enjoy doing to recharge your batteries?

NOTE: If my blog looks funny or something's wrong, I'll have no way of knowing.  There's a court case that just opened in Turkey against Google Blogger, so the government is blocking all google blogs. I can't access my blog page!  I can post, and I can read your comments, but I can't respond to them.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Taking a Break!

When was the last time you took a break?

I hope it hasn't been too long.  I've been out of town all week with my family at a retreat on the southern coast, taking time for some R & R, so I'm taking this week off from my blog.  Check back Friday, March 11th.

Have a great weekend!

Friday, February 25, 2011

Messing Up My Kids?

Our first summer in Turkey Jose and I sent our kids alone on a circumcision parade. Andres was 5, and Camille was 2.


The celebration was for a neighbor boy. The patio of the apartment building buzzed with activity. A team of men fried donuts, which they served to the crowd. Musicians played a drum and shrieking clarinet. On the curb cars lined up behind a 1960’s red convertible. Ten year old Necati sat on the back of the convertible with his white cape and feathered turban. Neighbor kids and cousins crowded into the cars behind him.

Someone turned to me and said, “Aren’t your kids going?”

“Can I go with them?” I asked.

“No,” he answered. “There’s not enough room.”

I hesitated. How could I send my kids with people I barely knew? I didn’t even know where they were going. But I was anxious to fit in with the neighbors, and I thought people would think we didn’t trust them if we kept our kids with us. Andres jumped up and down, excited to go. So contrary to my cautious nature, I loaded him and Camille into a car and stood back.

The musicians got into the red convertible with Necati and played loudly as the cars drove off honking. I began to panic. Was I crazy? What if I never saw the kids again? What irresponsible mother would send her children off with people she barely knew in a country she’d just moved to? My own mother would kill me if she knew about this.

Jose and I went into Necati’s house, and a half an hour later the parade returned. Someone carried a hysterical Camille to me.

“She started crying the minute the car took off,” they said.

By the time we calmed Camille down, Andres disappeared. He’d gone with all the neighbor boys and men into Necati’s room for the circumcision. The door was closed tight. I wanted desperately to get my son out of there, but there was no way I could barge in and interrupt. Ten minutes later the door opened, and Andres bounded out laughing. I breathed a sigh of relief. Everything was o.k.

For me this circumcision story is a metaphor of learning to trust God to care for my children as we serve Him in Turkey.

When we moved here my greatest fear was that we were messing up our kids. After all, they didn’t have a choice in the matter. What were we getting them into anyway?

I still worry sometimes that growing up here could affect them adversely. They’re far from relatives and our home culture, but they don’t quite belong here either. Camille came home from the park the other day saying one of the kids called her a dirty Christian pig eater. “I think people talk about us, Mom,” she said.

Yet on another level I knew that God has called us here. He is faithful, and I can trust him with our children. The example of Abraham encourages me. He was ready to sacrifice Isaac to the Lord, but God provided a ram to save the boy’s life. Abraham had to fully release his son to God. He didn’t know the end of the story when he laid his son on the rock before the Lord. I want to have the same attitude of entrusting my children to God.

Since God brought us here, I know He cares for and blesses our children. For the most part they’re happy and well adjusted. They enjoy their friends and life in Turkey. God has taken our children under his wings. He has the best in mind for them, plans to bless them. All of his promises, which are true for me, are true for them also. He loves them more than I do.

If you have children, can you relate to struggling to trust God with them?

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Planting Seeds in Turkish Soil

Seeds are a mystery. When a farmer plants a seed, he cannot see what is happening underground, and he doesn’t know when it will rain. We cannot know what God will do through the seeds we plant when we share His love with our friends. Nothing happens without the Holy Spirit watering those seeds. God is the one who makes things grow.





Do you ever feel discouraged when people don’t seem to respond to God’s word? I’m learning to rejoice in planting seeds, not worrying about the results, just trusting that God is at work, even when we cannot see. Here are a few seed stories:


God Uses a 10 Year Old Catholic Bible

I was surprised when our Muslim friend Ali got a Bible down from the bookcase 5 minutes after our family walked into his living room. It was our first visit, and he showed us his Bible before we even had the chance to bring up spiritual things.

“I read the whole thing,” his wife Miyase said. “It’s a wonderful book.”

Leafing through his Bible, we were able to share the gospel at different points through the evening, and we learned that Miyase had just discovered she has heart problem. She was understandably upset, so I offered to pray for her. She immediately called the children into the living room, and everyone sat around with hands turned upward as I prayed. I closed my eyes, and tried to focus on the Lord instead of on how I sounded to these Muslims.

The seed for our conversation was planted when a Catholic priest gave Ali this Bible over 10 years ago.


God Uses Movies

My friend Janet just told me a great story. Last Friday at 9:30 pm her neighbor came over to ask her about the passage she was reading in the Bible Janet had given her. It was John 3, so after they talked about it, Janet gave her neighbor a movie version of the gospel of John. The woman was excited to get the movie. She came back a few days later and said she loved it so much that she watched it twice and read John again. Now she wants to memorize the book of John.

Janet says, “After 3 years of loving on them, her heart seems open and receptive for the Word and Jesus. God never stops working!”



God Uses a Tract

Last week at the little salon down the street, I felt God prompting me to give a tract that I had in my purse to the hairdresser. I like this tract, which is titled “You are Special,” because it’s about God’s love, but I wasn’t sure I was brave enough to give it to the hairdresser I’d just met. She was attractive and friendly, chatting happily while she cut my hair.

“You’ll see how nice your hair is going to look,” she said. “I always try to find out exactly what my customers want; that’s how I keep them happy, and they come back.” She kept talking, and I started praying. Suddenly I was struck by how comfortable she was selling herself to me as a hairdresser while I had something even more valuable to give her.

So I took a deep breath and said, “I’ve really enjoyed talking to you. You’re such a special, friendly person. May I give you this? It’s about how much God loves you.” She smilled as she took the tract.

This happened two weeks ago, and I don’t know how God is going to water that seed, but I pray for her every time I walk by her shop.



You never know what God will do through the small seeds you plant. Have you planted a seed of kindness or shared God’s love with anyone this week? Leave a comment and tell me about it.

Friday, February 11, 2011

Overwhelmed by the Fast Lane

Fast Lane Life


 Do you ever feel overwhelmed by life? Like you’re racing down the fast lane? Sometimes life seems to speed up on its own.


Here’s what fast lane life looks like for me: One Sunday after breakfast with our weekend guest, my husband took my daughter to skating lessons while I cooked for our 12:00 house church meeting. I was just about to jump in the shower at 10:30 when the doorbell rang. Out of town visitors had arrived one and a half hours early. I was in my pajamas.

I ran down the hall to my son’s room. “Andres!" I said, “Open the door for them! I’ve got to take a shower!”

I raced into the bathroom, locked the door and somehow emerged 15 minutes later with clothes and makeup on. I made tea and talked with our guests until my husband returned. Other friends arrived at 12:00, and we had a great meeting. Afterwards I served soup and snacks and made tea. Everyone left by 4:30, just in time for me to make tea a third time for a couple who came at 5 for marriage counseling with my husband and me. After two hours of marriage counseling, my brain was fried, but my children, who had hadn’t had quality time with us all day, wanted to talk!

Overwhelmed

The fast lane is that state of mind when we are racing from one thing to the next, wondering how we can make everything fit in to our overloaded schedules.

Last week I was feeling overwhelmed by life and ministry. We believe God has called us to church planting, which involves visiting people, making new friends, and seeking to share the gospel. Only I still have a real life too. I home school two kids, juggle extra-curricular activities and run a weekly speech club. Of course I have to cook, clean, do laundry and get myself to the grocery store. I went to bed one night thinking, “How on earth can I do all of this and still find time to work on church planting?”

One Thing

I woke up early the next morning with the same thoughts and shuffled into the kitchen to make coffee. I sat down with my Bible. A familiar verse struck my eye:

One thing I ask of the Lord,
This is what I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord
All the days of my life,
To gaze upon the beauty of the Lord
And to seek him in his temple.

Psalm 27:4

As I thought about these verses, my anxiety began to melt away. I sat quietly in God’s presence and sensed His Spirit touching me. Slowly, peace filled my heart and mind. Everything came into focus. Life was not as complicated as I made it.


I don’t have to figure out how to fit everything into my day. All I have to do is make my relationship with God my first priority. He will order my life according to His plans as I seek Him first. I can trust that He will guide my steps as I walk through each day, living in His presence. If I seek God first, everything else, home schooling and church planting, will fall into place. That morning God transformed my thinking in just 20 minutes, and I had new peace and courage.


Of course it’s easy to forget this on those fast lane days when life spins out of control, but I know where I can go for an attitude adjustment.





Friday, February 4, 2011

Turkish Delight: Life-Changing Lessons


Last weekend I had another Turkish moment.  I was squeezed in with 13 people at my neighbors’ table, savoring her delicious chicken noodle soup, awed by the spread in front of me:  stuffed grape leaves, okra in olive oil, carrots in garlic yogurt, and some ten other dishes. Everyone was talking at once, a soccer game was blaring on television, and the kids were running around the house.
“You haven’t eaten anything,” our hostess lamented.  “Have some of these spinach pastries. All of this food has got to be eaten!”
After dinner when the ladies retired to the kitchen for Turkish coffee, I smiled to myself, remembering again how much I love Turks.  I came here to share God’s love with them, but they have changed me in the process. The longer I’m here, the more I appreciate what I have learned from them.
If you came to have coffee with my neighbor, she would surely offer you some Turkish delight.  I have a different offering for you this week:  little tidbits of Turkish style wisdom. These are life-changing lessons Turks have taught me.

·         Make Relationships a Priority

Turks live in community. Friends and family talk to each other almost daily and see each other often. (We Westerners would probably call this co-dependency.) At my neighbor’s dinner gathering, two of the couples had also gone to breakfast together the same day.  The women visit each other every Thursday.  They are lifelong friends who live in community.

·         Be Available to your Friends and Open to Interruptions

Many Turks will drop almost anything if friends call and ask, “May I come over right now?” As a Westerner I program and schedule my life down to the last hour, and I have a hard time putting aside my plans for friends who call to ask, “Are you free now?”  I wonder how many serendipities I miss when I’m not open to interruptions?

·         Make Room for Spontaneity in Your Life

Once my husband and I had plans to have dinner with a younger Christian couple. One hour before our dinner guests were set to arrive, my close friend Esra called.

“We haven’t had water in our apartment for 3 days. Can we come take showers at your house?”

I thought for a minute: Not only would our quality time with the couple be ruined, but I would need to then feed Esra’s family as well.  I asked her if she had any other options and explained that we were expecting guests, but I’ve wondered what lovely chaos would have resulted if I’d said, “Sure, come on over!”

·         Practice Hospitality

Turks can teach us the gracious art of hospitality, whether it’s offering a dish of nuts and dried fruits or a 5 course meal. The important thing is opening our hearts and our homes to friends.

·         Make Time for Slow Food and Slow Life

My favorite slow food is sarma.  It takes me 3 hours to make the filling and stuff the grape leaves. I tell myself, “I have three hours to enjoy cooking. I don’t have to hurry through life.” But I haven’t really learned this lesson because I only make sarma twice a year!

·         Respect Your Elders

When was the last time you kissed an older person’s hand?  Turks do it all the time.

So that was my box of Turkish delight for you. These are some things that make me love Turks.
If you have travelled or live overseas, what have you learned from your hosts?